The Will
This is just a collection of thoughts that I wanted to write down, so if you're reading this and starting to worry...don't. I just wanted to get these thoughts out there, writing can be quite cathartic. Call it "Creative Release", if you'd like.
Do you know why I come to you today, World?
I am just one young man, and although Hope still lives on in my soul, I am finally realizing my own limitations. I have tried for years to maintain connections, do good works, and ensure that others enjoy their lives.
That time is over.
I have realized more now than ever that the only sure-fire recipe is the recipe for failure...to try and please everyone. For over two decades now I've tried to be everyone's friend, everyone's confidant; everyone's most trusted adviser. No more. My life has been spent giving much in the name of scarce returns; I'm ready to start reaping for myself.
This decision does not come lightly, as I imagine many of you out there will probably come to be against me in the long run. This is not something new to me...my life, like many others', has known plenty of betrayals. For years, these betrayals were viewed in black-and-white terms. What I failed to see is the truth conveyed in betrayal, the proof of who your real friends are. If you are still there for me, then know that my love, loyalty and respect for you are tenfold.
I have loved you all at some point or another, even if only from afar. My greatest dream was to serve others and live well, but I now realize that as one man I can not have it all; as my life passes me by I have missed out on entirely too much. Sacrifices will have to be made in the name of progress, and the death of an Innocent's dream will be hard to swallow, but such is the price for living life to its fullest extent.
So to you, World, I say thanks for the good times...and I pray that for each of us there are even more good times ahead, but this will be the last time many of you will hear from me. No, I'm not dead; if you want it enough, you can get in touch with me. Just know that as this new chapter in Life opens, I approach it with a sense of hope for each of us...may we grow and love together; if not, I wish you all the best.
God grant me strength now, as I move forward in time to take hold of that which has eluded me for years...

